Miss Popularity

I am currently living life in the fast lane. I became popular overnight. The best part about my instant popularity is that I didn't have anything plucked, tucked, or laser beamed off my skin in order to obtain  this superior status. Popularity is actually very simple. The one thing a person needs in order to popular is to refrain from saying "no." If a person is always agreeable, never argumentative, and never looking out for his own interests, he too will be popular overnight.

I am a people pleaser by nature. As a result, I try to do it all, to have it all. I don't like to let people down. I work hard to be a good daughter, a thoughtful friend, and encouraging mentor, a selfless volunteer, and a supportive sister.Unfortunately, in this struggle to be well liked, I neglect my own ambitions and desires. While I was living away from home, I was able to balance my popularity. I frequently said "no." While my actions occasionally let people down,  I was rather content. I did the things I wanted, when I wanted, and I put myself first, for the most part. I was free.

Now, I am stuck back in my old routines. I never say "no." I am agreeable, I am never argumentative, and I am not looking out for my own interests. I do not do the things I want to do, when I want to do them. Rather, I am self sacrificing. I put others before myself.  I am popular. I am what everybody wants to be. But now that I am at the top of the social pyramid, I don't see what all the fuss is about. The view isn't that great.